I started the job.
I really like my boss.
Like, in that he'll never give me a second look but I secretly plot what our babies would look like sort of way. (only less stalkerish than that sounds, I SWEAR)
This is the first time, for the most part, since I moved back home that I've allowed myself to feel like this. I've shut myself off for a long time to most aspects of living. Fearful of being out there. Fearful of rejection.
I'm not pretty enough, thin enough, smart enough, bubbly enough.
I hate feeling like that. I hate wondering these things. So normally I just don't do it. I don't meet people. Don't go out.
But that said, and most importantly, why in the world am I suddenly concerned about men and dating at the absolutely busiest part of my life (starting two jobs, full last semester load that's 3 days a week instead of 2 + a fall job and looking for full time employment after graduation)?
FEELINGS. I hate them.